I will have other stuff to post later, I should really get back to work.  Stay tune for the latest update in projects, recipes and life.

Later

Who could really say no to this?

or this?

No person in their right mind can resist the cupcake.  Sure people complain that they are to messy, my answer to that, you can either lick your fingers clean or use a fork, because if it is small enough to neatly fit in your mouth, it is not really a cupcake and not worth eating.  So get out there try your local cupcake bakery or if you are really wanting a really good cupcake that is worthy of being shipped anywhere, check out Georgetown Cupcake, I know I will be.

Later

We went through 7 bags of candy, with most kids only taking one piece. It was fun sitting out side, freezing my butt off, with my friends and husband watching all the little kids. I am glad we did it, but next time, buying the candy ahead of time, my husband had to go on two candy runs last night to get more candy.

All in all it went well.  The mini witch hats were a hit.

And my favorite little Bumble Bee’s hunny pot.

All in all, I survived.  Word to the wise, or not so wise; buy plenty of candy, dress warm and don’t listen to my husband when he says one bag of candy will be enough.  ;-)  Also, amazingly fun to make three kids day by dividing what is left in the candy bowl between their three bags.

Later

Over the past few month I have learned to deal with some new issues and grown as a person. I realized that I do know who my “true” friends are, because I came out the other side of what I was going through with them by my side. So thank you, Cici, Goober, Ali, Don & Heather (face it your married, the names get smooshed together like MommyDaddy), Shannon and Court. I know I can be trying at times, but thank you for being there for me, no matter what.

I have also learned that family is something that can’t be replaced. Family makes you who you are. I have also learned that sometimes though, you have to do what is right for you and sometimes push certain family members away (or at least those that are family by law and not by blood). Over the past…well, many years, I have wanted so much to be loved and excepted by this certain group of so called family member, but no matter what I do, say or act like, I never fit in, I never was excepted, I was never loved by them.

I was always the after thought, the one they wouldn’t accept and just tolerated. So I put my foot down about this time last year. I had enough. So I did what I wanted and not what I felt I was obligated to do because they were so called family. You know what happened? Well, do you? Absolutely nothing, the world didn’t stop spinning, my heart didn’t stop beating and I didn’t feel a bit guilty about my choice or action. To be honest I was happy.

I am drama free, I am doing what I want and what is best for me, not what is expected. Sure I put streaks of color in my hair and have one nail on each hand a different color, sure I am almost 30, but I feel good about who I am and I feel pretty. I like having pink in my hair. I like have pink and orange nails. I like wearing what I feel attractive in, even if it isn’t the hottest thing on the runway. Which brings me to being true to myself.

I ended up in therapy this past spring because I was depressed and felt I had lost myself. I felt I have given up on everything I wanted to make everyone else happy, and I really wasn’t even close to being happy. I once thought that if I just made everyone else happy, I would be happy. So not true. I was miserable and that caused problems with all my other relationships.

I am now back to painting, sewing, writing and just plan creating.  I have made tutus, quilts, dresses, hats, lip gloss, lip balm (two totally different things, if you didn’t know), fairy wings, teddy bears, abstract art with melted crayons, abstract are with paint and a toddler, photographs of Toronto, and tons of photos of a certain almost two year old.  I must say I love my life right now, thought there are a few things that could make it better I will not die if I do not get them.

It would be nice if a few of my closes friends lived closer (Cici and others).  It would be nice to know that a child of my own was in my near future.  I would be nice to be able to afford a new car.  It would be nice to have a bigger house where I have a really sewing room and not a large closet to work in.  It would be nice to know I will be getting paid regularly.  It would be nice if I could one day be a stay at home mom.  It would also be nice if the heat worked here at work (I toes are sooo cold right now).

So I guess to sum things up, I am happy, I love my family and friends, very deeply.  I love who I am.

Major changes to come soon!!!